All my heads are tails,

It's been a busy week, and besides my awesome 03 & The DTVM Gang, I haven't met any of my friends :/ MSTs were horrible, I have never been so unprepared for assessments my entire poly life. But somehow I'm not paranoid about it like I usually am, maybe I'm too tired to be and when the results come out I'll go into depression or smth LOL. (I hope not)

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Missing: Zany, Jul, Farhan, Ryhan(where'd you goooo)

Been hanging with The DTVM Gang the past two nights, it's been so long! We really should do other things together besides crash concerts (: The overtaking of Aaron's car, MY ROTI KIREI, the DADP addition of Joseph, and most importantly THE CELEBRATION OF OUR FAVOURITE MALAY BOY'S BIRTHDAY were all a blast. It was a good break from all the stress of school and the 1000 things to do as well.

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I blogged the top half of the post last night. Now it's 2am on the 3rd of July, 6hrs till youth day. & yet I am here, blogging. I am a bundle of mixed emotions. I have been reflecting about the entire journey, what I've learnt, and the much I've failed in. It got me sobbing into my pillow for awhile, but Daddy God whispered into my ear "They still love you. I still love you." and got me up and back to my emails.

I know that I have been a mess this entire production, from the point I went down on my knees in surrender and take this step of faith to do this, till now, 6 hours before the show runs. I had no clue how to do a thing, how to do a production like this, how to direct and not act, how to make sure everything was in order. I still don't have a clue.

I have wronged people, misunderstood others, judged and criticized, shouted for silence one too many times, leaned on what I have learnt from people who directed me, been a nag about 45degrees and aesthetics.

At the same time I have prayed, broken down, gone on my knees, reflected on my heart, taken on the spiritual leadership, given instructions, taken instructions, and tried my hardest to do my utmost best for the Lord.

And for that He is pleased.

& tomorrow, He will be glorified.